The truth is... I miss you, I've been missing you a lot. But I really on't want to tell you about it, because I don't feel like I'm a part of your life anymore. Just a sad piece of your past that maybe you don't even want to remember, and it hurts me, because I really liked the way we were, the way I just waited to talk to you, and I admit it, I really like to remember how we met, how things went, how everything seemed to fit perfectly, until everything fell apart. But I don't regret it... Things are always the way they are meant to be. And maybe it was my fault. Or maybe not, and maybe we're just victims of this messed up situation. But I don't know. I never really liked to play the victim on these games. I don't really know what to do, because even when your words say you still care about me, you don't seem to feel that... I don't know, perhaps all you want to do is not hurt me anymore, or maybe it's me who's making mistakes, again, or not, or just... maybe this really has no fix. Maybe I'm really just a bad part of your past that you should forget. That's the only thing I do regret... 'Cause even when it's not the same, even when we don't feel the way we used to... It is still hard for me to bare the idea of you leaving me behind. But I think you did.
I don't think about it often now, you're not in my sleep, you're not there when I wake up, and just a few times at day you come to my mind, but when I think about it, and I mean, when I lay in bed just staring at the ceiling, and thinking deep about this, it hurts. Yet it hurts, and I know it will stop hurting soon, but things shouldn't really be like this. Because you're the most amazing person I'll ever meet, and now you're just done with me... Sad, but true.
I'd just like that you could be honest, once again, as you used to. That's what I miss the most. Your words don't really seem to say what you really want to say. And you think I don't notice that... I'm not a fool. At least not anymore.
Anyway... I guess this is the last thing that I'll say about it. I don't know if even this is worthed. I just don't know you anymore.
I promise I'll write on this shit sooner, even when absolutely no one reads me ♥
